Today I have been in bed all day. To be honest it is day two of the pity-party that I can be. I had a fight with a very special friend, I have stomach flu, My marriage is failing, and I just want to stay in bed ALL the time.
BUT! I get scared when I do this.... My mind is weak unless occupied. I know nature hates a void.
I let myself start feeling sorry for me... Shame Shame Shame.
I deserve better. I have a wonderful loving family. My brothers are amazing, my children are dynamic and full of life. My God is in control!
So why the sorrow...
I watched Hope Floats today..
I related to this movie when it came out. I used to sparkle. I was AUDACIOUS... I lit a room when I went in. I loved all, hard! I embraced life that God brought my way and tried to inspire hope, and faith. I will then do so once again. I want to be who I really am inside. I want to inspire again. It starts here .. on a clean page. Hope not only floats if you are patient, but if you are pro-active hope swims like an Olympic champ!
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